This - the recording (story) below is sort f ending of a range of material i have been making the last few months.
IN fact it refers to a few earlier things that are also in recordings i havent got battery to find again and put up.
A few more posts (i just think of them as chapters) will appear here over the next few days. 'filling in' or adding to, what is here now and the last month.
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Now i decry (as hate doesn't really exist) shock jokkery...
As Mister Stern began all that - awful man without one smallest personal value, between all of his fine follicles..
I was a little bit there working on the fringes of his mad Badlands.. it obviously wouldn't end well.
But i do know story can even 'save' lives - such as Miryams mentioned in the audio below - her story so bravely shared of such shame - and now twenty years on i will be sharing a few more interesting real stories...
Why stories ..i have rather a good chronicle with so much evidence its daft... but i don't think like that, really... how i think is there is some authority in presenting ones stories in such a way as they are obviously true even in this cynical land....
Engagingly, fully....all the way but never ever to shock.
Which takes time - not many an hour sweating over a line to get it just right, merely to curate many thousands i have all over the place into one fairly coherent woven tapestry that's a whole...
with the really bloody messes on the carpet from a lance in the belly, kindof laid out in a way where one proves that all wounds are useful in some way or other...
Even ones where i could have sued for substantial 'damages' but it never even occurred..
as money is never ever 'justice' in fact i dont even believe in that word..
justice is merely persisting... and maybe one day finding useful story in anything to share with anyone who may one day find that tale a poultice to their torn flesh...
And above all (ralphschism cheekily part riffs upon this as there is a decade long one dimensional utter Wasteland of weird self obsession, for unitary gain - even if just 'workshopping' when theyve NOTHING worth sharing... only part as i have tons of stuff to weave in from twenty years chronicling every second as a hobby) .. there is NO schema that is understandable - one CANNOT know why one has bothered surviving rather well flesh wound or the worst of the gassy chambers that is in so many other's heads...
empty or not...
but LAUGHING at their noxious gas...well thats when one is 'cured' of what is random ordinary life ...
And my own cross to bear is i can do that but Ive never thought comedy really is the answer even if Alexei was a demigod ....
I like wistful Proustian or Herbert Batesian stuff or even Georgie girl and her silas... i think that's useful but i don't think any British can even sit with something that doesnt demand 'victimhood' or even worse crap like Matt of late " the universe is.... [ fill in the dots - they have so many meaningless variants in what is only flabby language and nonthink...].."
To be cont
audio File 028 made 13 july 2026 evening
The ultimate Judas... ehh even if she needs something rather more poetical
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Sc_1k13Zka1ZUeQB6vUv7G1G9ueJ9yRx/view?usp=sharing
but it kindof adds to recent far better riffs on YOUR 'mental health' Apocalypse.
https://www.ralphschism.com/2026/07/i-should-have-asked-her.html
And a collection of just how good
many more on RS youtube...
thing is there is the 'evidence' - hardly anyone ever watches any kidvid.. despite them being uniquely bouncy funny and life affirming...
I don't think the British really do value children... as most of literature for the last century confirms, too
